Dads been gone since "99. For years I would have the occasional wish that I could talk to him. We didnt have a good relationship for most of my life but it got better the last few before he passed.
I wasn't going to reply at first, but this post has been gnawing on me since I read it on Sunday. I lost my Dad , very suddenly. He was at my house less than 72 hours earlier celebrating a huge milestone for our family (wife's .mil retirement). We live more than 1000 miles away, so it took some effort to make it happen and be away from Mom who is now, quite unfortunately, basically an invalid (a whole other situation for a once vibrant woman). It has been a waking nightmare since, and I have had no time to grieve or settle down at all - just one shocking surprise after the next. So much undone, so little prepared, and Mom's care. Wrapping up his life has taken me into its own hell, and he was always the one I would call to answer all of these questions I have. I miss him so much. And I am just about paralyzed on how to deal, seeming to take a week for something that should take a few hours. And the companies involved - insurance, banks, IRS, creditors - all make it damned near impossible to finalize anything. I am sorry for shoving this out there, and am posting anonymous for the level of detail here. But I have to get this off my heart somehow. It just hurts so damned much right now.
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Agree, Dad been gone since 07. I still catch myself thinking, "I wish he was here so I could ask him how to fix this or that."
That's a good thing, and as we grieve after a loss, it becomes pleasant memories later on. It's called Love.
22 years. Those thoughts still pop up on occasion.
Dads been gone since "99. For years I would have the occasional wish that I could talk to him. We didnt have a good relationship for most of my life but it got better the last few before he passed.
I wasn't going to reply at first, but this post has been gnawing on me since I read it on Sunday. I lost my Dad , very suddenly. He was at my house less than 72 hours earlier celebrating a huge milestone for our family (wife's .mil retirement). We live more than 1000 miles away, so it took some effort to make it happen and be away from Mom who is now, quite unfortunately, basically an invalid (a whole other situation for a once vibrant woman). It has been a waking nightmare since, and I have had no time to grieve or settle down at all - just one shocking surprise after the next. So much undone, so little prepared, and Mom's care. Wrapping up his life has taken me into its own hell, and he was always the one I would call to answer all of these questions I have. I miss him so much. And I am just about paralyzed on how to deal, seeming to take a week for something that should take a few hours. And the companies involved - insurance, banks, IRS, creditors - all make it damned near impossible to finalize anything. I am sorry for shoving this out there, and am posting anonymous for the level of detail here. But I have to get this off my heart somehow. It just hurts so damned much right now.
'Nightmare' and 'hell' sounds like a proper description of that mess. Damn.
Blow off the steam, guy, everybody needs to at times.
It's glad to hear this, I am not alone.
Thank you.!
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