That some day, or night, you'll get that phone call about someone else you care about.
That, barring some real nice discovery, you'll never be in the shape you used to be.
That there seems to be no good balance between 'save for the future' and 'do things now, you can always get more money!'
That no matter the time that passes, some things still hurt.
That no matter the time that passes, some things still piss you off.
That at times you feel like one of the greatest blessings you could have is a real, full nights sleep.
That, even knowing you did what you had to, you still feel like it was a failure.
Yes, I'm having deep thoughts tonight. And there's no booze.